A fire burns behind me
I run to keep ahead
Those who I once cared for
becoming cold and dead
Red and black the flames grow high
Smoke rises in the air
The pain of my unworthiness
Seems more than I can bear
In front of me I see the sun
I long to feel it's heat
The iciness inside my heart
has paralyzed my feet
I see the moon, I see the stars
They swirl and dance for me
I see the hole, the big dark hole
Where one star used to be
I run to keep ahead
Those who I once cared for
becoming cold and dead
Red and black the flames grow high
Smoke rises in the air
The pain of my unworthiness
Seems more than I can bear
In front of me I see the sun
I long to feel it's heat
The iciness inside my heart
has paralyzed my feet
I see the moon, I see the stars
They swirl and dance for me
I see the hole, the big dark hole
Where one star used to be
Comments
After feeling responsible myself, for trying to "make right" what I was aware of, God has finally managed to get through my very thick head that HE will deal with it and I can let go. And oh how close I have had to draw to Him in effort to do that.
I pray for them fervently, daily, sometimes even more, that God will bring a miracle of healing in their lives. I still love Ruth with all of my heart and even have managed to love Steve again. God is truly faithful and a miracle worker, I can testify to that simply because of His work in my heart there.
God has worked and is working in SCC and He has many followers there who love Him. I do pray that they will always look to Him for their example. And I know that those like Jon, and even myself, that found ourselves hurt and in pain, will find healing and joy as God has given us a wonderful opportunity to become more like Him!
Thank you for the comment, I could not have said it better!
As you think on this situation, pray that God will reign in the lives of all affected!
God is good and he is faithful. I can honestly express joy and trust in Him.
I know how difficult this has been for you to try to be the best friend that you were to her even when he was being abusive in a very un-Christ-like manner. God will use this sad course of events to continue to draw you closer to Him. I pray that they will seek Him as well as He is the great Physician and I truly believe there is an illness in their lives that they need to address.
It breaks my heart that there are those, like Jon, who have truly sought God and have had to learn the hard way that the pastor who you think is "the Real deal" is a hypocrite like so many others.
This church was supposed to lead those to Christ who had been turned off by the traditional and quite often hypocritical churches/pastors who give Christianity a bad rap. What a shame! But, that is for God to deal with. I just pray that the good people of SCC are looking towards Christ and the Word for guidance and not the pastor and his wife for role models in how to become a strong "Christ-follower".
Monday, August 11, 2008